I write this email in such a deep dissapointment.
I think and think again, was it really worth it to keep or not.
We’ve been together for 4 years, last month was our 4th anniversary.
I need to be with you. The picture of us not being together is just freaking me out.
I don’t want to be alone. I’m afraid to be alone.
I always felt like you’re the one. We’re a good match.
Though so many differences lies between us, it just feels so right to be with you.
And facing the fact that I must let this relationship go makes me so insane. I cant think clearly. I want to reach you out and find out how we could make it happen. But another part of me keeps reminding me that “Was it really worth it? Do I really desserve this?”
I DON’T DESSERVE IT.
I Really Don’t.
I’m afraid that if I give you another chance you will just lie to me again, you will hurt me, you will makes me waiting even longer.
And these question that keep spinning in my head :
Why are you doing this to me?
What do you really want?
Are you afraid? Or just want to playing with me?
What am I to you? Am I just a thing to keeps your hand busy?
I love you.
You hurt me.
You lie to me.
And we might not meant to be together.